#2422 “The Stormy Sea! Michiru's bitter self-reflection!! ”
@spritflame
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golD_lux
Hey Aunt Michiru what's going on? Are you okay?
Mdm_Maestro
...why are you asking
golD_lux
You don't know me very well but in the universe I come from, you helped tutor me when I was younger and taught me the violin. So I know you a bit.
Mdm_Maestro
How convenient for you :P
golD_lux
...you don't really have any friends besides Uncle Haruka do you?
Mdm_Maestro
Don't mention her name to me! That crass, womanizing idiot has already taken too much of me!
I never needed any friends besides her!
golD_lux
See I have the benefit of being from another time and another universe so I don't have all the baggage, but I did study up on the history here before I arrived... and uhh, to be blunt, you sorta alienated everyone around you in one way or another.
I tried to think of anyone you were really close to here and I couldn't come up with anyone, which is why I'm talkin' to ya.
Mdm_Maestro
Well, I thnak you for your concern, but it's not really necessary, dear.
golD_lux
I think it is.
Mdm_Maestro
Your opinion is noted. Good day to you.
golD_lux
You're the sort of person who doesn't cry. You withdraw and get angry.
Mdm_Maestro
SHOULD I NOT BE ANGRY?
HAVE I NOT BEEN WRONGED?!
golD_lux
Are you 100% innocent here? Haruka might wear her lack of self-control on her sleeve, but you push the envelope more quietly.
*cough* Michael Knight *cough*
Mdm_Maestro
OH I JUST DID THAT TO GET BACK AT HER
golD_lux
She really is your entire world, isn't she?
Mdm_Maestro
Ever since I was in high school.
...you're married, are you not? To The Intern?
golD_lux
Yup!
Mdm_Maestro
Both of you are spies in your own way. That must mean you sometimes have to become uncomfortably close to other people to get the job done. How does your marriage withstand it?
golD_lux
Because we trust each other and we know that if the other person has to do that, it's just acting.
Mdm_Maestro
My fear is Haruka is not acting.
golD_lux
Are you nuts? She would burn down the universe for you.
Mdm_Maestro
I don't doubt it... but be that as it may, she wanders.
And I... I hate... competition. I hate sharing with others in that way.
I made her the complete focus of my world, but I feel like she places me off to the side when the hormones strike.
golD_lux
Have you ever considered that that level of focus is... a little unhealthy?
*I* had to seek you out. No one else around here knows how to approach you, or confide in you, or reach out to you. Maybe Setsuna? But she's not right in the head. Or Matsumi? But you barely talk to her.
Mdm_Maestro
...
Haruka was everything. We understood each other without having to say a word.
Looking back, however... you're right. I never made connections with anyone else. I never felt the need to... nor is it particularly easy for me.
Others were only ever attracted to my public aura, or intimidated by my genius.
But Haruka was... different.
golD_lux
LOL you're talking about her like she's dead.
Mdm_Maestro
...
She's dead to me.
golD_lux
You can't be serious about that.
Mdm_Maestro
...I may look 25 but I'm 49 years old. I was drawn to Haruka at 16. I've focused on her, and only her, for 33 years.
I daresay that's almost as long as you've been alive.
golD_lux
I'm a little older but I get the point.
Mdm_Maestro
I'm questioning a lot of things...
Was I drawn to her because of who she is or because of the past life we shared?
Did we pick up from where we left off because of a fated destiny to always be together, or because we had to finish the mission.
And now that the mission is over and the fate of the future is safely in the hands of the next generation...
Is that fanatical glue dissolving?
golD_lux
I'm sure Uncle Haruka loves you just as much today as she did all those years ago.
Mdm_Maestro
...but it's not the same level of focus.
golD_lux
Deep down I'm sure it is.
Mdm_Maestro
I'm not seeing it.
I feel like I have sacrificed everything and am being left behind.
golD_lux
Tell her what you're telling me?
Mdm_Maestro
Bah. She just shrugs it off with a flippant joke or a fart.
golD_lux
I'm pretty sure that's just a cover to keep her from being too vulnerable. You should know all about that.
Mdm_Maestro
...you're far too familiar. You might know another me, but not this me.
golD_lux
Hey come on...
Mdm_Maestro
...I appreciate your effort and your concern. But the time for talking is over. I need to really examine what it is that "Kaioh Michiru" is
